This is the place where I have a loving relationship with time
We are good friends
There is something here about many lifetimes
An understanding of many lifetimes
In many dimensions of time
It helps me relax into time as we know it on this Earth
I’ve learned that the only thing rushing accomplishes
Is a disconnection from love
It feels like as long as I rush I’m not engaged with the bigger reality.
The way mechanisms engage when gears fit together.
When I rush I can only engage with the smaller wheels and actually don’t accomplish as much.
Things appear to be moving, but the real movement is just waiting for me to engage it.
So being in a present and loving relationship w/time
allows me to engage in the big turn of life.
With the fast whirring I only get to engage in ‘fast’
When I move with the truer turn of time
I get to engage w/life more deeply
It’s more real here.
So what my life looks like in this loving relationship is
I breathe much better. Deeper.
Breathing is one of the primary mechanisms for discovering what level you engage. For choosing where you engage.
Fast and shallow breathing is a fast and shallow experience of life.
Deep and relaxed breathing is a deep and relaxed experience of life
Another mechanism for engaging with the passing of time is hormonal.
Functioning on adrenaline I am in the “rush”
There is a purpose for adrenaline. To protect and survive.
Not to move you through life.
It’s meant only for times of emergency
So feeling adrenaline is a message to ask “am I in an emergency?” “Is this a crisis?”
If it is a crisis, adrenaline is a gift.
If it is not an emergency, it’s an opportunity to open and let go of fear.
And trust God
From this place I’m astounded at how efficient and on top of things I can be.
When functioning from a true relationship w/time
I’ve learned that rushing never gets you current.
Never gets you in the Now. It only gives you the feeling that you should be somewhere else.
Used to believe if something presented itself it automatically required energy/attention.
Everything in the moment is important, but sometimes the purpose of things arising is to just bless it and move on.
I don’t have to explore every connection as far as it will go
I don’t have to go down every path to see what’s at the end
Especially if it’s someone else’s path.
That’s their job, not mine.
I stay on my path, that’s my only job; it intersects with other people’s and sometimes parallels other’s, but I am not the explorer of anyone else’s.
I have only my life to live.
My heart can lead the way. My body can move me along the way. And the rest of me can come along for the ride. My mind can be interested in all the things we see. Can identify some of the plants and label the experiences, but the one that really knows The Way is my heart.
When I’m wondering what to do, where to go. I ask my heart “In this moment, what is the Truest action?” “where is my path….now?”
And I trust the answers.
It’s also important to remember that there are infinite possibilities for choices of action. Not just one. But where the mind would want to catalog them all and be the one believing it chooses, the heart always knows the way.
The way home.