Mmmmmmmmmmmhhhh. . .
I am completely open
to direct guidance
I let go of any illusion of me
as a lone individual
and I’m aware of the many spirits who are connected to me
and I have open, direct communication with them
I welcome spiritual guides as part of my awareness
it feels like a partnership
What I realize is that what’s gotten in the way in the past
is simply my ego –
the belief that I am the one doing this.
I liked that because I could take the credit
“I don’t see you guys so it must be just me . . . “
Oh, what a silly thing!
When I relax into what’s more real, I know that I am a unique individual
and I also understand that
I am a teeny tiny little light
In a sea of infinite light
and to try to shine less or more
than any other light
is a really silly idea.
Oh, I can see a million moments in my life where I’ve done that
(more loving laughter)
Oh, that little ego
The thing to do with that little ego when I notice it wanting to be more special and take credit
is to just remind myself that there is nobody else just like me
that’s all I need to know.
My significance is felt when I see my truest light shining
my significance is to shine, to shine pure love
I’m realizing that my mind uses these words love and light as though they are separate things
But what I’m experience now is that the love and the light and the dark are exactly the same.
Pure energy. Vibration.
The most core reality there is.
Everything. EVERYTHING is energy.
EVERYTHING is LOVE.
It is what we are made of. What everything is made of. And the dark is where EVERYTHING originates.
The sun is light.
The sun is love.
Food is light.
Food is love.
We are light.
We are love.
Light, the only constant – Love, the only constant. Same thing.
I’d love to have a new word for this
Just to say love and light creates two words with distance between them.
A distance that is not real
My feeling is that somewhere in language there must be a word that means both.
In my body I’m feeling Love/Light as one
This feels like the real stuff
I can feel all these separations that used to exist blending, coming together.
I’ve had the experience of duality operating in separation
Light was Spirit
Love was Emotion
Somehow those felt like different things
This feeling is permeating all of me
From here, these beings –
these other presences
are right here.
And they are completely Love.
I also understand why I don’t have a lot of verbal dialogue with them
When I ask for specific questions or guidance
it’s much more about sensing a very quiet guidance.
These guys are not chatty
They say “Be Still and Know”
It’s beyond language
There is a physical sensation too
it’s an anchor that’s a way of recognizing that knowing.
It’s a deep calm in my solar plexus.
That’s interesting because it’s a place where I have felt so much tension for so long.
The calm pulses very quietly and effortlessly pulls me to the right action.
This is my guidance system when it comes to taking action.
There are other centers that have other purposes at other times, but this is the important one to pay attention to now.
It has to do with my purpose. It has to do with healing my relationship around Time.
It has to do with healing my Self, my understanding of Self and how brightly I choose to shine in the world.
I can trust this feeling completely
I can trust it’s movement completely
I can be still and in action in the same moment
Be still and Know.